llama! i bet u werent expecting that haha!

mcrdisciple

December 19, 2009 | 04:22 PM

I'm having a stressful time and my parents aren't helping. Just as I'm in the mindset of "Ok, I'm going to look forward and think about doing things better in the future," my mom is all like, "The whole point of this is that you're mentally lazy! And you haven't taken any initiatives outside school! You have no ideas! For the past seven years all you've done is fantasize about pornography and rock music!" Yeah, way to boost my self-esteem, which is what I need to get through this whole stupid process of college apps. It's not even so much that other people have gotten into my dream school that I'm upset. It's just her making me feel worthless. i hate her verbal abuse. I hate my fucking school. I want to be away from here, free to follow my own path and with people I actually like and won't hurl insults or whisper about me at every move I make.

I'm tired. I'm burned out. I've started cutting and scratching myself again and I hate it. I want out. I want this all to end.

Current mood: depressed

Current music: Les choristes - Cerf-volants